Why I Write
Have you ever looked at what other people's work and thought that you could never compete with it? Have you ever finished a book and underneath the elation it brought, you have a sinking feeling of hopelessness because you cannot write like that yourself? I have. It used to stop me from doing anything. But then I realised something: Of course I can never write like them because I'm not them, I'm me. My own person with my own writing. What I write is completely unique. It doesn't matter if what I write is good or bad, if it is a five-thousand word story or a single line because it is mine.
Every time I write something, I am putting myself on paper, immortalising a bit of myself so that it cannot be forgotten. I write my own history in magical words and love poems. Everyone's greatest fear is being forgotten, to know that their life was meaningless. This is my way of making sure that I am never truly forgotten.
I write to control what happens, to manipulate my own world. I write because I like the sound of my own voice and hearing my characters speak my words makes me feel like a god. It is a way to fuel my own ego and give me a purpose. I used to idle my days away, mindlessly scrolling through social media, but now I write little snippets here and there and my day feels more worth while.
At the same time, I'm writing something that others might enjoy, giving them a little piece of myself for them to muse over. It is an intimate exchange of intelligence. When I write I'm giving you, the reader, the secrets of my soul. You just have to pay attention to my words to find them.
